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Oct 23, 2006
don't know My blog has suffered over the past few months. As I look back at the point that it started to fall apart, I think I can peice together why. I decided to write a book. And, that gave me writer's block. I became to serious about writing. Taking it too seriously has always killed this blog. I have pretty high standards for writng, being a graduate student that writes a lot of papers. But, my blog traditionally hasn't been about serious writing, though the occasional serious post has slipped in there. Originally, when I started this site, I wanted to change the world with it. I had some important thoughts in my head, so I thought, and I wanted to get them out there. But, I found myself not able to write about all of these important thoughts, at least in a consistent and coherent basis in a way that it would be interesting to read about. On the other hand, I didn't want it to be one of those "journal" sites, where I just log what I did during a given day. There's nothing wrong with those sites if you write one, I just don't want to write one. So, my site is mostly observations. If I write about "my day," it's usually just one story, and it has either a moral or a punchline. It also is filled with vague references that will point me back to valuable lessons without revealing too much about myself. Throughout the summer, life became difficult. In many ways, actually. And, as I tried to chronicle these things, the words I tried to put together just didn't work. These things affected me in an emotional way. But, whenever I tried to write about them, it came off like a sociology paper-- good observations, but ultimately missing out on the ultimate impact of them all. I've been depressed a lot over the past several months. Or, at least on the verge of depression. I've actually managed to stand there on the edge of the cliff and not fall off, though there have been constant efforts to knock me off. And here's where it gets tricky-- any attempts to explain will fall short of explaining. Any attempts to chronicle will miss the key points. I think maybe it's because my background in writing is academic, not creative. Even my humorous posts are really dry until I get to the "punchline." Then again, that's conssistent with my sense of humor. Anyway, I have no point to this. I just am taking a hint from the movie, "Finding Forrester" (one of my favorites) and am just trying to keep typing until something comes out of it ("PUNCH the keys, dammit.") That being said, I have no way to conclude this, so I'll just conclude by saying that this is the conclusion. posted
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