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Oct 30, 2005

tired and cranky

So, I just found out that I did the wrong assignment for Hebrew tonight. I still have two 1 page papers to write for my other class, I'm tired, my leg hurts, and I have to work at 7:00am.

It's good to be back in school!!!!

Oct 28, 2005

I need something to do this weekend.

What's up???

Oct 26, 2005

amusement

Friday night we got cable. Digital Cable. With DVR. Due to my injury, I've had some time to explore a bit. And tonight, I made a great discovery:

They are showing Beavis and Butthead episodes on MTV2.

This is a great discovery. This show was probablly one of my top 10 influences in High School. I wrote a journal entry for my English 100 class about how Beavis and Butthead were good role models. I've even quoted them 2 times during sermons.

Needless to say, I have the DVR set to record every occurence of the show.

Tonights top quotes:

"Why do they call it 'easy listening' if it's so hard to listen to?"--Beavis.

"If meat's bad for you, then how come it's food?"--Butt Head.

Oct 25, 2005

the silver lining

I was reading a post on a blog by one of Mel's friends. In it, she was talking about how people having a crush on a worship leader might affect their worship (she herself is a worship leader). It got me to thinking about how people having a crush on me might affect their ability to focus on God. I felt really bad for a while. But then it occured to me: nobody has a crush on me. So now I feel better. So, it turns out that my ineptness with women has a higher purpose. I guess everything really does happen for a reason.

Oct 24, 2005

the end of an era

For the longest time, I've bragged about how not injury prone I am. I've never been injured before, other than a couple of pulled hamstrings.

That streak ended this weekend . . .

FOCUS fall retreat. Late afternoon, about 20 of us are playing a friendly game of football. I catch a short pass and turn upfield to run. Two people grab me, but I'm able to keep my balance and move forward a few feet. Then someone else dives at my legs.

I feel (and hear) a pop. I fall to the ground. I move my leg, and feel my knee pop back into place, followed by intense pain. After rolling around in excruciating pain for a couple of minutes, the pain dies down and I'm able to sit up. I attempt to bend my knee again, but it basically moved and creaked like a rusty hinge. So, I decided to go to the emergency room. Luckily, Bill was there and knew how to get to the closest hospital.

2 hours later, the diagnosis: sprained knee. Treatment: a leg brace, crutches, and a couple of precriptions. Luckily, it's just a sprain and nothing more serious. It's a huge inconvenience though. I'm totally horrible on crutches. So, I gotta figure out how to get to and from work, get groceries, and all that jazz. But, I have plenty of people willing to pitch in. Which os cool.

I have at least one friend who finds this whole thing hilarious for some reason. At least I can take comfort in the fact that my pain brings joy to others.

Oct 21, 2005

prayer

Last night at small group we started a prayer journal. We each took a sheet of paper from it and wrote down some prayer requests. As we continue to meet, we are going to look back periodically to see how God has moved in those areas.

Last night, I wrote maybe 5 or 6 things. Before the night was over, there was movement in 2 of those areas.

hmmmm . . . .

Oct 20, 2005

unforgiveable sins

I don't know how to forgive people.

For the most part, I'm just not the type to hold grudges. I let go really easy. In fact, it's really rare that I even get angry anymore. If I do, it's usually a quick, intense flash, and if I can keep myself from doing something really dumb in that brief moment, I'm fine. So, forgiving someone is rarely an issue with me.

But, like anyone, I have a breaking point. And once it's reached, I don't know how to let go. I don't have any practice in the area. Basically, I don't know what to do.

It's a lot more complicated that just simply letting go. I'm good at letting go. I can even get over whatever the person did that was "wrong." I can be nice to them. But I guess where the issue comes is trying to rebuild trust. I'm typically a trusting person, and will trust someone right away. But, once it's broken, I have a hard time giving it back. I don't know why. So, in the back of my mind, that relationship remains broken for a long time.

In particular there is a situation in my life with a particular person that I am having a hard time resolving. I'm not mad or anything like that, but due to something this person keeps doing to me, I find myself wanting to avoid this person. And the thing is, I know this person will keep on doing what they are doing.

Many Christians claim that "forgiving" does not involve becoming a push-over and letting people walk all over you. I don't find that to be Biblical at all. In fact, I think the "turn the other cheek" is a call to be a push-over. In one of the Corinthian epistles (I'm on a roll or I would look it up, and I will and post it soon), Paul talks about lawsuits among believers, and the fact that we shouldn't have them. In it, he asks, "why not rather be wronged?" We are called to give up justice in certain situations, at least for ourselves. This is so hard in a situation where we know a wrong is never going to be righted.

What troubles me the most, at least in my current situation, is that it's really only my pride that's being hurt. Why can't I just let go of that? This thing is really eating at me, and if I could just let go, I would be so much better off. But, I have to hang on, because my pride is being hurt. It's kinda dumb really. But hey, it's who I am.

Oct 19, 2005

pain

After about a month of mostly playing keyboard, I played bass at FOCUS tonight. So, my fingers aren't used to playing stringed instruments. Thus, my fingers are now very very sore. A tough life I lead. But, I guess its a good warm-up since I'll be playing acoustic guitar on the retreat (which I think will be the first time I've played guitar in worship since mid-august.)

Oct 18, 2005

more barber shop humor

A while back, before I started cutting my own hair, I posted some antecdotes I overheard at the barbe shop one time. Tonight, I was reminded of another:

If a man is out in the middle of the forest, and he is giving his opinion on hundreds and hundreds of topics, and there is no woman around, is he still wrong?

"Hair Salons" just don't have the character of a good ole fashioned barber shop.

mediocrity

Have you ever had one of those weeks where you feel like you can't do anything right and you are letting everyone down?

That's this week, so far.

Oct 17, 2005

writer's block

It's been far too long since I've posted anything interesting on this site. Hmmmmmmm . . . .

Oct 15, 2005

footbale

Today I went to the Ohio State football game. This is the first time that I've been to an OSU game, since I am not an OSU fan. But, being a fan of college football, and OSU being one of the elite programs in college football, I felt compelled to accept the invitation to attend the game. 2 things really bugged me though:

1. There is no statue or any kind of monument honoring Kirk Herbstreit.

2. I'm not really sure who they played today. See, I thought they were playing Michagan State. That's what I was told. That's what it says on espn.com. That's what my ticket said. The other team had on green and white uniforms with a green "S" on the helmet. So, I was pretty confident. However, everywhere I looked, there were signs and shirts that said "Beat Michagan". On the jumbotron, all of the graphics kept having Michagan reference. There was even a tent that said "Beat Michagan."

So, I think they may have in fact been playing Michagan today. I'm really not sure.

So, note to OSU fans: I get it that Michagan is the big rivalry. But seriously, chill.

The most exciting part of the trip: auto accident. Everyone is okay, but the car we were in got dented up pretty bad (I'll let the driver reveal his/her identity if he/she so chooses.) Anyway, let's just say that on the drive home the only thing keeping the hood down was some towing straps.

Hebrew midterm in 40 hours. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! But, FOCUS retreat in 1 week!! Arrrrrrr (but this time it's a pirate arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr).

Oct 14, 2005

the bright side

Just so you know, the last 2 posts are no indication about how things are going right now (just a couple of "situations"). In all, things are well. Insanely hectic, moreso that I think my life has ever been (which I had previously thought would be impossible.)

So yeah, peace out

Nite time!!!!

gullible's not in the dictionary

That joke actually worked on one of my coworkers. For a week straight.

I got a good laugh out of it.

Maybe I shouldn't though, cause it seems that I can be gullible too. I guess we all can from time to time. It happened to me again tonight. There is this one situation where I keep falling for it every time. For whatever reason, I never seem to learn. I keep thinking it's going to be different this time. But, same result. Over and over. For a while, I did learn. That's the crazy part. I even took a break from it all. But then, I thought I would try again. There were some factors that made me think that things could restart.

Same result. Again.

I'm either an idiot. Or neurotic. Or both.

Maybe someday I'll get it.

Oct 13, 2005

negativity

Tonight we recorded the FOCUS worship set so I could do some evalation. I just have one question for everyone: Why didn't someone tell me my vocals were so bad? I mean, I knew that was a weak area, but dang!!! I was worse than the guy from Creed.

IN other news, I just saw a banner on a website that had the following question:

Which show would you rather see back on TV.

The choices: Sex in the City and Friends.

I would rather that TV never existed than to have either of those shows back.

Oct 3, 2005

commercials

Aparently stuff in commercials happens in real life. Unfortunately.

Over the last year there was this truck commercial (Chevy I think) that, in an attempt to show how big their crew cab trucks are, portrayed a group of 5 20-something men riding in a truck, after an afternoon of rock climbing or some other extreme sport that would involve a 4X4. Anyway, that song, which I don't know the title or the artist (and I use artist loosely), but has the line "Man, I feel like a woman . . ." Anyway, dude in the middle of the back seat starts singing along, really getting into it, and his buddies start looking at him like he's an idiot, and the other guys in the back seat start sliding as far away from hing again.

Well, today that happened at work. That song started playing on the radio, and one of my male coworkers started singing along. It was crazy. I wanted to start making fun of him (as I should have), but all I could think about was how weird it was that this commercial was actually coming true.

Oct 2, 2005

shopping

Apparently this was the weekend to get cool new music stuff. Tommy went out and bought some stuff for his drums (as you can check out on his site). And me, I got a new harmonica in the key of D and this bad boy:

It's a Green Bullet Harmonica mic. If you've enjoyed my harmonica playing up till now, just wait. It's going to the next level!!!

It will debut at FOCUS on Wednesday, October 12.

more fortunes

It looks like I'm going to be moving soon. Why? I don't know. But, check out the 2 fourtunes handed down to me by cookies over the last week:

The time is right to make new friends.

You are soon going to change your present line of work.

So long suckas!!!!!