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Oct 20, 2005
unforgiveable sins I don't know how to forgive people. For the most part, I'm just not the type to hold grudges. I let go really easy. In fact, it's really rare that I even get angry anymore. If I do, it's usually a quick, intense flash, and if I can keep myself from doing something really dumb in that brief moment, I'm fine. So, forgiving someone is rarely an issue with me. But, like anyone, I have a breaking point. And once it's reached, I don't know how to let go. I don't have any practice in the area. Basically, I don't know what to do. It's a lot more complicated that just simply letting go. I'm good at letting go. I can even get over whatever the person did that was "wrong." I can be nice to them. But I guess where the issue comes is trying to rebuild trust. I'm typically a trusting person, and will trust someone right away. But, once it's broken, I have a hard time giving it back. I don't know why. So, in the back of my mind, that relationship remains broken for a long time. In particular there is a situation in my life with a particular person that I am having a hard time resolving. I'm not mad or anything like that, but due to something this person keeps doing to me, I find myself wanting to avoid this person. And the thing is, I know this person will keep on doing what they are doing. Many Christians claim that "forgiving" does not involve becoming a push-over and letting people walk all over you. I don't find that to be Biblical at all. In fact, I think the "turn the other cheek" is a call to be a push-over. In one of the Corinthian epistles (I'm on a roll or I would look it up, and I will and post it soon), Paul talks about lawsuits among believers, and the fact that we shouldn't have them. In it, he asks, "why not rather be wronged?" We are called to give up justice in certain situations, at least for ourselves. This is so hard in a situation where we know a wrong is never going to be righted. What troubles me the most, at least in my current situation, is that it's really only my pride that's being hurt. Why can't I just let go of that? This thing is really eating at me, and if I could just let go, I would be so much better off. But, I have to hang on, because my pride is being hurt. It's kinda dumb really. But hey, it's who I am. posted
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