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Jun 1, 2006
pre-retirement A lot of athletes do this, announce that the coming year is going to be their last. So, I will do the same. It hit me tonight that it's about time to retire. As a worship leader. So, the 06-07 school year is going to be my last as a worship leader. There are several reasons at play. The main one is that I'm just not that good at it anymore. I used to be able to go at a high level all of the time, and could play through major glitches. Now I lead at a high level occasionaly, and glitches are starting to derail me. Secondly, I'm getting old. I know I joke about it a lot, and I'm still a good ways away from really old, but as I approach 30, I have noticed that it affects things. I can't stay up all night anymore. And, I can't put the same energy level into planning, practicing, and leading a worship set. Finally, the main reason, and something that plays into the other two, is that I'm just not as passionate about is as I used to be. I'm tired of my songs. I don't like any of the new ones. Leading practice isn't as fun. All of the administative aspects aren't as fun. I'm out of ideas. Occasionally, a service will still go really well, and I'll think I can still do this. Even tonight, as we went acapella into Agnus Dei, it was a really powerful moment. But, these aren't the moments that drive me as a minister anymore. I've always known that at some point, I would step away from worship ministry to focus on teaching. I always thought that 35 would be the latest. Instead, I will be just shy of 31. I'm already feeling the tug to transition to teaching. As I've had more oppertunities to teach this quarter, I have felt a transition in myself. This time next year, I'll be looking for a full time ministry position anyway. And I've always known that worship isn't where I would end up. So, it all seems natural. One more year. Probablly somewhere between 6-10 more services. And then I'll be retired. Hopefully I can go out with a bang. posted
by Unknown @ 12:33:00 AM |
