Sep 17, 2005
control

At the end of July, I felt invincible. So many things were falling into place and working out for me.

A month and a half later, things are totally different.

My whole life feels out of control.

Not that it's all bad. But, as I meditate on my life, I see about six major areas that my life can be "compartmentalized" into (sure, it's a rough sketch at best.) And I've realized that I have no control over any of them. In most I can exert some influence on, but I just can't make things go my way.

Why does it matter. Because over the last three weeks, things have just spiraled out of control. I'm pulled in six different directions. Sometimes I just can't keep up. Sometimes I'm just totally exhaused, and have no idea how I'm going to make it through the next day.

The thing is, I always make it. Always.
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