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May 20, 2005
spinning This week I've been in one of those moods I don't know how do describe. I'm pretty sure there isn't a word for it. Normally, I would make up a word, but this is one of those things that I think if I tried to describe it in words, it would just end up empty and hollow. It's times like this when I envy people who can write poetry, because they can describe moments like this. I can do it somewhat melodicly, sitting in my room with my keyboard making up stuff, but in those cases, I can describe it, but in the end it doesn't help me understand things. Anyway, the mood is not bad, and it's not good. But, it's not in between either, and it's not neutral. And, it's not a mixture of the above. I don't know what it is, but it's very real, and very intense. Maybe I just think too much. I constantly think. I've always wondered if everyone else is the same way in that regard, or if it is possible to be awake and not think. I've tried, but I can't do it. The closest I've ever gotten was thinking about how I wasn't thinking, but ultimately that was thinking. And that's how things are inside of me. I can bottle them up, but I can't turn them off. posted
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