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Apr 19, 2005
i'm on a rampage Back in the days when I owned a Nintendo 64 (I promise this won't be a video game post), one of my favorite games that I owned was The Legend of Zelda: The Ocarina of Time. One of the hardest enemies, at least in my opinion, to defeat was Shadow Link. Shadow Link was someone identical to the character you were playing with, and whenever I moved, he would move. Thus he was difficult to beat. I think eventually I figured out that if you hit him with a sledghammer you could take him out pretty quickly. As I prepare for my jouney into the infinite abyss, something occured to me today. In there, I am going to have a battle to fight. I will meet my own worst enemy. I will be facing myself. Over the last few days, I have noticed a dichotomy about myself . . . never have I been so at peace with myself and so angry and frustrated with myself at the same time. Then I realized: There are two me's. Two facets to my personality. There is my true self. Well, at least my potential self. This side is really cool. Intellegent, funny, a dreamer, a wild imagination, cares about people. Just a good guy. Then, there is my dark side. The dark side is full of lies. He tells me how worthless I am, how little I can do, and how nobody is really interested in me. The problem . . . I believe him. All of my fears, all of my anxieties are wrapped up in these lies. It cripples me. But recently, I've just grown very tired of it. I'm tired of being afraid. I want to be free. So, here I wander into the abyss, sledgehammer in hand (and this is the second time in a week I've used a sledgehammer as an analogy. I just like hitting things with hammers.) I have to face him. I have to reject the lies. I have to free the good guy inside of me. Tonight, just thinking about it gave me a sense of freedom I haven't felt in a long time. It was like my dark side was bound up for a while. It was nice. I know I'll slip in and out, but from now on, to quote Strong Bad, "I ain't takin any guff from no one!" posted
by Unknown @ 1:32:00 AM |
