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Feb 17, 2005
the singleness lament *EMO ALERT . . . EMO ALERT . . . EMO ALERT* (I think you deserve fair warning.) So finally, here it is, three days after Valentines Day. I lament my singleness. Really, I kinda like being single. Sure, there is definately a part of me that wants to settle down with that special someone and start a family and all that good stuff. Let's face it, I'm getting old. It's about time, right?? And, sometimes, well, I get lonely. I have a great group of friends and all that, but sometimes, well, you all know what I mean. We've all been there. But, for the most part, I'm pretty content about it. The whole being free thing is, well, pretty cool. Over the past couple of weeks, however, I've had a few converstations that have caused me great sadness (okay, that was overly emo.) The big issue is this: It is so hard for a single guy to get a ministry position in an evangelical church. Not impossible, but I know that has greatly played against me in my search for a ministry. And it really bothers me. First of all, it's just flat out unfair. Secondly, it's blatently unbiblical (cf I Cor. 7). And thirdly, the motives behind it are all wrong (I won't go into it here.) And here's the thing: it totally messes with my head. It makes me want to go find someone so I can add that to my resume. That's just nuts. But, it's a reality. When I first had this conversation last week, my plan was to make up a girlfriend so that when I have interviews, I can tell them that I am dating someone really seriously, and then after they hire me I could tell them that we broke up (over the whole distance thing, of course.) I think that that was the moment that I totally hit rock bottom. So anyway, that's my lament. The thing is, as I try to lament my singlness, it always occurs to me: it's my own fault. I never ask anyone out. It's the whole fear or rejection thing. Somehow, I seem to think that rejection is worse than the current situation, which I know deep down is not true. But, what can I say, girls scare me. It's who I am. The whole thought of it freaks me out. It's probably for the best though. If I was more confident, I would probablly be one of those lame guys with the pickup lines. And we certainly don't need more of that. So yeah, thanks for listening. I PROMISE, no more than one emo post per week, and I'm going to try and cut down even more. I promise. Please don't stop coming here. Tomorrow's post will be really funny. posted
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