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Jan 23, 2005
fear
The number one fear in the United States is public speaking. Number 2 is death. The crazy thing is that I am not really afriad of either. So, it would seem that I'm braver than the average American, right?? Well, I do have one paralyzing fear: rejection. It's pretty crazy, because while my sucktitude score is pretty high, my coolness score is pretty high too (the two aren't necessarily opposites.) Anyway, I've been thinking about this for some time, and today at UCC fear was the topic du jour. And John posed a question that I have heard him pose before: If you didn't fear anything but God, what would you do? We were supposed to scribble down our answers on a note card. After much thinking about it, I really didn't come up with anything. Sure, I wrote something down for the sake of the activity, but it wasn't a good clear honest answer. The honest answer is that fear is so much a part of my personality that I wouldn't know what I would even look like without it. Sometimes I overcome it, and other times I am totally paralized by it. Usually, the response falls somewhere in the middle. About a month ago, I gave some freakin brilliant advice to a friend. He took the advice, and great things happened. Now, faced with a similar situation, I find myself unable to follow my own advice. Fear of rejection. Also, I look at how it affects my ministry. Fortunately, I have many other good qualities that help compensate, and ultimately all ministry success is God's, not ours. But, I can't help but wonder, what would happen if I did fear God more that people. posted
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